I’ve lived a good part of my life as a non-fan of something that I’ve more recently discovered is woven into me. I don’t think I’m alone in experiencing the internal power-struggles between aspects of who I am and who I want to be. Let me try to explain myself.

Something in me has always gravitated toward the free-spirited, artistic, creative, unfettered life. I prefer shoelessness, when I have a choice. Some use cliché phrases about thinking “outside the box” or reference coloring “outside the lines.”  I’ve always longed to be more “outside” than I really am. Perhaps this explains some of why–in my days as a classroom teacher–I took delight in some of the students who drove my colleagues a little crazy.

[do you know how cool i think it would be to have one of these in my office? anyone know what kind of markers they use? dry erase on glass are so unsatisfying. and yes, i know that by experience.]I’m growing to understand that my brain too much weighs the impact of a thing to let myself do all the stuff I think about doing. I often had “great ideas” which I often shared with others who agreed. Others who implemented the ideas while I watched from the sidelines. I interpreted this as a weakness.

A lack of courage.

A missing sense of real adventure.

Today, I am grateful that God gave me this odd and often at-odds combination of creativity or idea-thinking and practicality or strategic-thinking. I think it puts me in a place to make a contribution to leading change that has some value. I’ve certainly often been in the middle of it, that’s for sure.

But once in a while I just need a few days to abandon my measuring, thinking, evaluating, considering self and let the sing-at-the-top-of-my-lungs, sandcastle-building, finger-painting, flower-picking self romp without so much restraint.

One thought on ““Strategic”

  1. Bob says:

    Well, I think some of us are visionaries and some of us are implementers. I’m not good at strategic or visionary thinking, but am real good at implementing other people’s ideas. If it wasn’t for them, I’d just be endlessly maintaining what exists. It definitely takes both kinds for a successful organization. I don’t think the visionaries need to be implementers, too; I know anyone expecting me to be a visionary will probably be disappointed.

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